Not long ago I was asked to write an article about TRUTH.
I’m part of a group of women entrepreneurs producing a monthly e-magazine called It’s All About Yes and our latest topic deals with truth and how it effects you.
My article talks about the Golden Rule, treating others as I’d like to be treated.
Well, last night I couldn’t fall asleep right away – I hate those nights. I kept thinking about other truths. I kept thinking about the phrase “that’s the honest truth.” Umm, isn’t truth by its very nature honest? So, of course I had to look up “false truth.” Yes there is such a thing. According to the Urban Dictionary: A false truth is something believed by many people to be true but is not. It is usually something that cannot be backed up with hard evidence. Or: A very subtle lie that most would not be able to determine whether it is true or not
Based on that second definition, isn’t that the same thing as a “white lie?”
Well, the other thing my mind kept going over and over, with the “honest truth” constantly popping up. I kept thinking of Lily Tomlin playing Edith Ann – and that’s the truth!
One of the things that kept running thru my mind: what’s been going on in my life lately. I’ve not been a (completely) happy camper of late.
As you know, I have epilepsy and need to take medication to control my seizures. When one takes medication you need to be careful and make sure that the generics you get are consistently the same as what you’ve been getting. If you don’t monitor this you can suffer some nasty side effects. Well, I’ve had to change where I get my meds and had to research into where they get the meds from. I spent a lot of time on the phone for this one. Well, I found what I needed to know, got the new generics. But I’ve been dealing with some lousy side-effects. One effect being not being able to clearly concentrate. This is not good when you need to be accurate for clients.
So, as a result I’ve taken on a part-time job to supplement my income. This is not a bad thing, many people find themselves in a similar situation. And, since mine is a home-based business and I’m at my desk all the time, being out of the house for the part-time job is a good thing – I get out of the house.
But, once in a while I wonder. Are my disoriented feelings a result of the medications? Could they be a result of working my business and working a part-time job? Could they be a manifestation of my feeling like I’m failing? I mean I must be failing somehow – I had to get that part-time job…
Now, because of my ethics of the importance of doing everything right for my clients, I’ve introduced a client to a friend of mine who is also a virtual assistant. Yes, it makes me feel a bit better that I’ve succeeded in looking out for my client. However, I’ve now further reduced my income. That isn’t helping me any. There was a series of “malfunctions” leading up to this decision, this facing another truth.
- The disorientation making it hard to concentrate, I wasn’t performing as well as I should.
- Then I got a nasty cold and felt even more miserable.
- While feeling miserable/unfocused I opened a bad email and a truly rotten virus attacked my computer. My computer guy was wonderful and was able to save everything!
- Right after getting my computer back my wireless keyboard started failing. SWELL. According to a tech at Logitech it’s possible that the virus affected the keyboard. I have to wait 3-5 business days to get the replacement keyboard (thank goodness for warranties).
Because of all of the above happening, I’ve had to use my laptop. It’s a great little thing but doesn’t have everything I need. So, I’ve lost a client (my decision – don’t want to keep letting her down).
All these truths are hard to face.
All these truths are depressing and make me want to curl up and hide. We all know that won’t solve anything!
So, here’s my plan to solve these rotten truths:
- Revel in the fact that the disorientation is easing up.
- Enjoy the part-time job – it is helping me through this time. (not necessarily making things worse)
- When the computer is complete again, find a class on one of the things I’m not so strong in and take it. Being in a “formal” class will help my brain function more clearly – snap me out of the fog.
2013 is going to be a better year for me and my business. I just need to keep positive.
And that’s the truth!