Archive | March 2015

A Lack of Serenity?

Does my current mood come from “general overall depression”? From frustration? Or am I lacking in Serenity?

We know the Serenity Prayer: God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.

SerenityI am having issues with that accepting the things I cannot change thing.

I’ve sorta come to accept that I cannot drive until June 15. I’m sorta willing to accept help and knowing that I can ask for help with getting from point A to point B and back again. I know that I have to have the co-workers handle the bank run (for the store) even though I should – on the days I’ve opened the store.

But…

Yes, that word, that thought, just hangs around and adds to my issues.

There are people in my life with issues of their own. I have a bad habit of letting their situation effect me, even though I know darn good and well it shouldn’t. I guess empathy is just kicking in – too strongly. Why is that?

I am frustrated and discouraged over my own situation (definitely not feeling any Serenity). Then I go and let others’ anger and frustration over their situation get to me. I try to find ways (at work) to help them not feel stressed. But in doing this, I get overly stressed.

I’m guessing that this is the point where I have to have the Courage to change MY perceptions of what to do in these situations. I have to have the Courage to understand that I can be a Lead Clerk (basically a “junior” manager), run the store – do my job – and not let the emotions of others effect my judgement. I have to understand that they are venting and that it does not effect me directly.

But (there’s that word again), I do worry about others. Well actually for others. I have to learn that I have to know that I need to take care of ME. I have to understand that I do not have any control (and really don’t want to) over others’ emotions/anger/frustration. All I can/should do is simply listen, then let it roll off my back.

My health – physical and mental – would be much better served if I can actually do what I just said.

Although, it would be easier if people (me included) would NOT bring home to work and work home. That’s one of those easier said than done things. On the plus side, June 15 is getting closer.

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