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Don’t Let Bad Rule You. Life Can Be A Party

Hello!!

I know it’s been such an incredibly looooooooong time since I last wrote a blog. I was guilty of letting that shocker to my health get in my way.

As a refresher, I had been seven years seizure-free until December 16, 2014. What made my system whacky? Well I had some shoulder pain and the family doctor (without checking for possible side-effects) prescribed prednisone. This was a higher dose than what you get when treating for a cold and/or sinus infection (like a minimum of 10x higher). After a couple of days the prednisone counter-acted my seizure meds. It was as if I suddenly stopped taking them. Well, when one suddenly stops taking some meds, it causes the very thing the drug is preventing. So for me, three seizures that day.

7-9-15 not rejecting helpI was blessed during my six months of restricted driving. A neighbor (stay at home Mom with an adorable 5 year old daughter) took me to work and on my short days picked me up. She and I even went to a couple of garage sales – doing fun stuff. The folks at work (part-time job in retail) handled all the bank runs, even another department on the days when I would have been the only person to go.

But you see, I lost my independence – Boo Hoo. It wasn’t as if I did a lot of traveling – I don’t really. It’s just the issue of having to depend on others and feeling like a burden, whether they told me I wasn’t or not. It didn’t matter, because I felt that I was a burden and/or pain in the…

I’ve been back to driving for a month now. Would you believe that it’s still taken a bit for me to get over myself? I think what really helped was having an emergency at work and my boss (regional supervisor) calling me at home asking me to go back to the store – and be able to count on me to actually do this.

I have always had a hang up – I can and am willing to help others, happy to do so and don’t expect anything in return. But (now there’s a big word), when it comes to me asking for help…

7-9-15 Asking-for-helpSo, what is the lesson I’m trying to impart?

Well for one thing understanding that the quote is true and for me and other like-minded people to remember and hold in our hearts.

Don’t let health set backs ruin your outlook on life in general. Stuff happens – good and bad. Don’t get so wrapped up in what you perceive as “what should be” that you bog yourself down with nonsense (feeling you can’t ask for help). Basically, get over it, move on. This is not to say that you don’t have the right to be frustrated over the set back. You do. Just don’t let it run your life.

Notice my tagline up there at the top: The Party’s on – Seizures Saved my Life! Why do I say that? Well anyone can let the bad stuff in life run them down and ruin their outlook on life. Why not say that something adverse turned out positive? It’s working on perspective and how one views life that’s important.

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A Lack of Serenity?

Does my current mood come from “general overall depression”? From frustration? Or am I lacking in Serenity?

We know the Serenity Prayer: God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.

SerenityI am having issues with that accepting the things I cannot change thing.

I’ve sorta come to accept that I cannot drive until June 15. I’m sorta willing to accept help and knowing that I can ask for help with getting from point A to point B and back again. I know that I have to have the co-workers handle the bank run (for the store) even though I should – on the days I’ve opened the store.

But…

Yes, that word, that thought, just hangs around and adds to my issues.

There are people in my life with issues of their own. I have a bad habit of letting their situation effect me, even though I know darn good and well it shouldn’t. I guess empathy is just kicking in – too strongly. Why is that?

I am frustrated and discouraged over my own situation (definitely not feeling any Serenity). Then I go and let others’ anger and frustration over their situation get to me. I try to find ways (at work) to help them not feel stressed. But in doing this, I get overly stressed.

I’m guessing that this is the point where I have to have the Courage to change MY perceptions of what to do in these situations. I have to have the Courage to understand that I can be a Lead Clerk (basically a “junior” manager), run the store – do my job – and not let the emotions of others effect my judgement. I have to understand that they are venting and that it does not effect me directly.

But (there’s that word again), I do worry about others. Well actually for others. I have to learn that I have to know that I need to take care of ME. I have to understand that I do not have any control (and really don’t want to) over others’ emotions/anger/frustration. All I can/should do is simply listen, then let it roll off my back.

My health – physical and mental – would be much better served if I can actually do what I just said.

Although, it would be easier if people (me included) would NOT bring home to work and work home. That’s one of those easier said than done things. On the plus side, June 15 is getting closer.

What a Psychic Once Told Me

Rather interesting email yesterday. It told me that I needed to be concerned because:

I am contacting you now because this morning I had a powerful flash about you and I felt the enormous distress that you are carrying with you at the moment.
If act NOW then you have every chance to resolve the major questions which you have about your love life at this time.
I know you now feel abandonned and alone as far as your love life is concerned but I want you to know that this is no longer the case because I want to help you to work through this situation.

Yes, this person is a psychic I contacted – based on a friend’s recommendation. The above excerpt is exactly how she sent it – with typos. My reactions:

  • Enormous distress????? Huh?
  • What major questions about my love life? My husband and I are very happy thank you very much! We’ve been together 30 years and married 26.
  • There is no way I feel abandoned.

This is the same psychic who told me at the beginning of last year that she saw a lot of travel for me for the year. Well, OK I’ll give her that one. I did go to a convention in Chicago. I did do a lot of driving back and forth to the hospital because of my husband’s surgeries. OK, on the “a lot of travel” thing.

Then she said, here is a list of your lucky days. On these days you should play the lottery, I know you will win. OK, what could that hurt? I played the Lotto and instant tickets. Win? Not once. The only one who did well on that was the State Lottery Commission – they sold more tickets.

It is very rare that I contact psychics for readings (the last time was when I was 21 and Mom thought the person was great – another way off base person), but sometimes they are entertaining. I should say right now, I’m sure there truly are gifted people out there. Just because I haven’t found one doesn’t mean they don’t exist. Maybe it’s that I don’t completely understand exactly what they’re telling me?

What do I actually learn from psychics?

Well, there is the belief that I am smart and can make my own way in life – with the help of friends and loved ones. This is how everyone truly does well in life. A truly wealthy person cannot count how many friends they have – because there are so many. A wealthy person counts their blessings – and they are abundant!

My life is blessed. I have people I love and who love me. I have friends, and people who think I’m great even when I don’t see where they get that idea. I do thank God – every day – for this and ask for help for my family and friends (as the need arises). You’d better believe that I asked for help for Kim’s cancer and that he be given the ability to beat it. It worked – he is a little over a year and cancer free. But the doctor won’t declare this for another 3 years.

So, thank you God for my life.

Oh, a positive flow of income wouldn’t hurt…

Spring Beauty

Yes, Spring is here! Here in Michigan some folks are afraid that it’s already come and gone (that weird couple of weeks of seriously unseasonably hot weather), but the plants are blooming.
As you can see, the moths are happy with my lilac bush. I’ve had this bush for a few years, and one on the other side of the house since we moved in (16 years ago), we’ve never had that many moths flitting around – 10 at one time. Plenty of bees though.

I was told that all those moths were there to bring blessings to my home and surroundings. Another told me this is a blessing of my life. I can live with this. I simply thought it was great seeing all those creatures enjoying the lilacs.

People say it’s good to count your blessings. Me, I’m just happy to have blessings. The blessing of being able to work – in spite of my health. The blessing of my husband beating his cancer. Basically, just the blessing of being alive is making me happy. Some of the challenges aren’t any fun at all, but those can be blessings in their own unique way. If one doesn’t have challenges to learn from how can one improve and learn to be a better person?

So dear reader, I hope you enjoy this season and the beauty that’s all around. (hopefully those with allergies – like me – can enjoy too!)

Sitting on Pins and Needles

YIKES! That’s a painful picture! But if you think of the meaning it explains a lot:

It means feeling sharp anticipation or anxiety; in a state of suspense. Someone who is “on pins and needles” is very anxious and nervous. This not necessarily a negative emotion although the phrase is sometimes used in that way, it is usually used to describe someone who is in great anticipation of some event that they have been looking forward to.

OK, so maybe saying I’m sitting on the edge of my seat is better:

If a story keeps you on the edge of your seat, it is very exciting and you want to know what is going to happen next.

Hmm, well in my case I guess I’ll have to stay with the pins and needles thing. You see, the other day (2/7/12) I had a follow-up EEG. I haven’t had one in years – when you don’t have insurance you sort of let things slide. I won’t find out the results of the test until I see the doctor NEXT Friday – 2/17/12 – hence the pins and needles thing.

Yes, I have been living with my epilepsy since 1991. Yes, I have been taking meds all this time. A person gets tired of taking medication – especially when those meds make you tired all the time, and still fog up your brain. I’ve been having the feeling of late that the more foggy feeling is because I either don’t need as much of the medication, or I don’t need it at all.

Wouldn’t that be fantastic?

Since I had the surgery putting electrodes directly on my brain in August 2007 for testing, then removed and everything closed back up, I haven’t had anymore seizures. This is a major record for me. I truly want to be one of those rare people whose seizures stop because the brain’s environment changed.

Yes, I know there will always be some damage – face it having seizures causes some brain damage to the area where the seizures originate. But, some research I’ve read on fighting early stages of dementia suggest that Vitamin B12 and learning new skills (like more things for my business) can help build brain cells. I’ll be asking if this will work in my case.

So, here I sit (figuratively) on a BIG helping of pins and needles waiting for next Friday and to find out the test results. As I usually spend my prayers on many other folks, I’m going to be a bit “greedy” and ask that my hopes come true. That’s not a bad thing. Right?

Health & Business

There are times in an entrepreneur’s business life when you wonder WHY. Sometimes it seems even more of a tough question when that entrepreneur has a medical condition of some sort. You may feel even more pressure from your business. I can appreciate that feeling. Honest.

This is by no means a “pity party” – never the reason for my blogs. This is an opportunity to share with each other that:

  • You are not alone
  • There will be good days and not so swift days – for your business and your health
  • Your support system may not be the best for your business.

Many times an entrepreneur feels they are all alone – no one understands where they are going with their business dream. Sometimes the entrepreneur looses their dream, or it gets muddied. That’s normal no matter who the entrepreneur is – that’s business.

There will be times when your health may (try to) get the better of you and foul things up. I know this from experience. There will be days when all is right with the world – and you can take on anything/every thing that comes your way. Revel in those moments. In your life and in your business. Take full advantage of those times. When you’re clear-headed and strong those are the best times to make strong business decisions. Never make decisions when you’re tired and on a bad health day – it’s counterproductive.

Your support system for your health condition may not be the best cheering section for your business. Sometimes well-meaning family and friends will not understand what it is your want to do and why you want to do this. Your loved ones can either drag you down telling you (lovingly and because they truly care), you just can’t do this, it’s too much of a strain. Others may go in the opposite direction. Actually put too much strain on you. Thinking they are being supportive telling you that they plan to live/retire from your business – and soon. (I call this over supportive) This can put undue stress on an entrepreneur – leaving the feeling of succeed or else.

I do truly understand this. I have my days when I feel on top of the world – even when my medication makes me feel I have to sleep for a while – I wake up just fine and clear. But then I have my low days, when those comments of hurry up – I want to retire (well-meaning as they are) – puts stress on me and then I worry that I might have another seizure (causing a set back in my health). That doesn’t help the frustration any! But then I can/do work my way past those feelings. I have a couple of quotes that help me, maybe you can find help with them:

  •  To believe yourself brave is to be brave; it is the one only essential thing. ~ Mark Twain
  • Life must be lived and curiosity kept alive. One must never, for whatever reason, turn his back on life. ~ Eleanor Roosevelt
  • Never allow a person to tell you no, who doesn’t have the power to say yes. ~ Eleanor Roosevelt
  • Just remember, if the world didn’t suck, we’d all fall off.  ~ Author Unknown

Find what helps you stay on your path. Don’t give up on getting through your health issues – whatever they may be – don’t give up on your entrepreneurial dreams.

When Will it Stop???

Have you ever felt like the weight of the whole World rests squarely on your shoulders? Do you feel that mythology had it wrong – Atlas was a woman? Well sista, please trust me you are not alone.

We have all felt that crushing weight at one time or another. We have all heard words of encouragement and at some times have thought them to be empty words of platitude. I know I have. I know it can be beyond a “challenge” sometimes. Hell, it’s a pain to try to keep using a “positive” word like challenge to describe a particular situation. Because as soon as you (well OK, me) start using negative words for the situation, it seems to get worse even if it is just a tiny bit.

But please remember YOU cannot control everything in life. Going back to my introduction story – I have epilepsy and at times it has negatively effected my life. Yes, with medication and the surgery I had I can stop my seizures. But remember, I had some hurdles to jump just to get to this point. I had to experience more seizures than I ever had. I had to loose a job as a result of the seizures. I (apparently) had to go through a time in my life where I felt useless and a burden. I had to go through some painful testing. There weren’t many things I had control over. I had all that weight piling up plus all the worry and frustration I added to the pile that only dragged me down further.

I suppose I had control over whether or not I went through the testing/surgery, but even that I really felt no control over. I felt I had to go through that because how else would I know if we could stop my seizures. During this time I was stressing over how we would pay for things/bills. Being short one income.

Then slowly but surely during the end of that process, things started getting better. I started (baby steps) a version of my business. That start helped my self-esteem and helped me realize that even though I had all that weight on my shoulders I could do something about part of it. I needed to do something so I felt like I could contribute to improving our situation. Doing that helped me get out from the soul-sucking depression I was at the edge of and could step away from.

Slowly but just as surely that weight started lifting from my shoulders and things are getting better – and so is my outlook on life. So dear reader, what I’m trying to tell you – things will eventually get better. When that weight lifts you feel like you can soar!