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Sitting on Pins and Needles

YIKES! That’s a painful picture! But if you think of the meaning it explains a lot:

It means feeling sharp anticipation or anxiety; in a state of suspense. Someone who is “on pins and needles” is very anxious and nervous. This not necessarily a negative emotion although the phrase is sometimes used in that way, it is usually used to describe someone who is in great anticipation of some event that they have been looking forward to.

OK, so maybe saying I’m sitting on the edge of my seat is better:

If a story keeps you on the edge of your seat, it is very exciting and you want to know what is going to happen next.

Hmm, well in my case I guess I’ll have to stay with the pins and needles thing. You see, the other day (2/7/12) I had a follow-up EEG. I haven’t had one in years – when you don’t have insurance you sort of let things slide. I won’t find out the results of the test until I see the doctor NEXT Friday – 2/17/12 – hence the pins and needles thing.

Yes, I have been living with my epilepsy since 1991. Yes, I have been taking meds all this time. A person gets tired of taking medication – especially when those meds make you tired all the time, and still fog up your brain. I’ve been having the feeling of late that the more foggy feeling is because I either don’t need as much of the medication, or I don’t need it at all.

Wouldn’t that be fantastic?

Since I had the surgery putting electrodes directly on my brain in August 2007 for testing, then removed and everything closed back up, I haven’t had anymore seizures. This is a major record for me. I truly want to be one of those rare people whose seizures stop because the brain’s environment changed.

Yes, I know there will always be some damage – face it having seizures causes some brain damage to the area where the seizures originate. But, some research I’ve read on fighting early stages of dementia suggest that Vitamin B12 and learning new skills (like more things for my business) can help build brain cells. I’ll be asking if this will work in my case.

So, here I sit (figuratively) on a BIG helping of pins and needles waiting for next Friday and to find out the test results. As I usually spend my prayers on many other folks, I’m going to be a bit “greedy” and ask that my hopes come true. That’s not a bad thing. Right?

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Sharing a Celebration

Let’s see just the other day I talked about how Summer is going away (look how close we are to Labor Day!), I encouraged you to look at the positives from this Summer. How have you been doing on that?

Anyway, happy news (for me) tomorrow, August 27 will make FOUR YEARS since my last seizure. Those with epilepsy can appreciate that milestone. To be honest anyone with any sort of serious health issue can appreciate anyone hitting a milestone. It definitely puts wind in your sails! On top of this, my doctor agrees that we could lower the dosage of my medications. Two things to celebrate. I hate taking pills of any kind, I’m looking forward to the day when I don’t have to take any.

So, what was the first thing I did when I got home? Well I called the company I get my meds through and made the woman answering the phone think I was a bit crazy! I might have sounded overly enthusiastic about ordering medication. She understood when I told her that it’s a lower strength.

Hey what can I tell you? I suck at cartwheels!

So, just what (in my exuberance) am I trying to tell you? Well to more clearly explain celebrating I found some quotes that I feel fit the occasion

In our work and in our living, we must recognize that difference is a reason for celebration and growth, rather than a reason for destruction.  ~ Audre Lorde
Every day is an opportunity to make a new happy ending. ~ Anon
Stop worrying about the potholes in the road and celebrate the journey! ~ Barbara Hoffman
When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced.  Live your life in such a manner that when you die the world cries and you rejoice. ~ Indian Saying
Warning:  Dates in Calendar are closer than they appear. ~ Anon

So, we all need to remember that no matter what our life situation is – remember to take time to celebrate! Life’s too short to do otherwise, why waste the time we have being all gloomy?

I hope you find your reason to celebrate and share with us!